the poems on this page: < through the window > < rose street > < into the moonlight > < cleaning the attic > < pitiful history > < anal sex > < swimming in blood > ------------------------ < through the window > the shadow of the building moves as the sun forms it into the hand of a giant clock grabbing the day and pushing it to one side - - - < rose street > in a neighborhood of streets named after flowers you find yourself on rose greeting me as i come from begonia on my way to marigold - - - < into the moonlight > me lying on the grass in the backyard of your parent's house looking up at you as you pull your shirt up over your head and your breasts fall into the moonlight - - - < cleaning the attic > well i should be but i'm reading an old newspaper instead it's a special edition of the new york times with photographs of hitler's assassination of shera standing on the granite steps her arm held straight before her as she shoots - - - < pitiful history > i told myself i was loaning you the money you needing it most nights sharing a hotel room down on a street where i need to walk in my old clothes pretending we're friends but this little piece is for sale and i went down on you once too often and everybody knows you're a bastard but i just can't find any better and it's karma i hear over the pissy smell of memory of wading for you in public restrooms and scratching your number on my brain while trying to get you back - - - < anal sex > and you can clean your ass with warm enemas filled with fragrance and alcohol so you get too drunk to fuck but it doesn't matter it's fun and the closest to a girl that i can be when us boys are together and somehow aren't happy as we should be being just boys - - - < swimming in blood > we are all not just swimming in blood but drinking it and enjoying its warmth on the inside of our throats and stomachs and the water we always thought was water was blood swimming in blood i watch you take off your clothes one shoulder at a time carefully revealing what is always there what is always blood - - -